Catching up....

Been a long time....

- Moved to SR from SJ back in Jun 2015. It was a weird feeling initially that having lived in SJ for 21 years, I would not be living there any more. Also, spent the last 12 years in the SJ house and now new house.... mixed feelings.

- Nov 2015: changed my job after 3+ years and joined JN. More on the JN experience in subsequent posts.

- At this time (Oct'15) onwards dad was not keeping good health. He had congestive heart failure and he refused surgery option for so long that the consequences of that decision were catching up now. He suddenly couldn't walk as much any more. Several trips to the emergency room in Oct, Nov, Dec... ) :( Dec end, visited his doctor in a desperate attempt to do something for him and was told bluntly he had maybe a month to live. :( Anyway, mid to late Jan, Dad ended up in the ER once again and this time the docs told us bluntly that he would not be leaving the hospital alive. All 3 of his kids were with him and went through a harrowing time, living by the min, day by day and finally on Feb 8th 2016, he left us. What a fighter all his life and even in his last moments, no regrets in his voice, his face or his attitude for anything. No fear. #Respect and #Love for dad. May his soul rest in peace along with Mom in heaven.

- Made a quick trip to India for Asthi Visarjan at Haridwar and his chautha in Karnal, Haryana.

- Once back, the american life took over again. No mercy from work... very cold and businesslike: get down to business. Hardly any mourning time. Lots of urgency at work to move projects along (ironically they took another 6+ months to get approvals).

- Till this day, my parents come in my thoughts, day and night, waking hours and in my dreams... as if they are still near me, around me, interacting with me. There is this huge void and sadness, which I try not to show in my behavior or face but it is so hard. Life feels so meaningless now. More later on this...

- Sold the SJ house finally in Mar'17. Needed the cash for a franchise business we are starting. More later on this...

- Kids growing up fast. Only a few more years before they fly off in search of their dreams, just like my siblings and I left our home in search of ours.

Gotta go... but will be writing again soon.

Ciao